I’ve been thinking a lot lately about how I’ve become the person that I loathe. The one who doesn’t share the whole truth about ‘how they are’ when asked, because I don’t want to be a drag. Or i don’t want to be that person who is always brutally honest. But when it comes down to it, that’s exactly what I need to be. i need to be brutally honest about what’s going on here because who am I helping if I’m not?
I have a secret to share…many secrets actually, but they are going to come out in a new series called Real Talk with Mama Goot. This is number one…. Real Talk: I have post partum depression.
I’ve chalked up my melancholy sadness to the transition of our moving in warp speed time and doing so in the wake of having a new baby and then trying to get settled in and and and…only then I realized that the ands weren’t stopping. They were merely excuses and justifications for the fact that I often felt crazy miserable inside. Or the fact that my brain would take over and send me on a roller coaster with the lowest lows I’ve seen in years. It’s amazing what being alone with your thoughts can do and I’ve had quite enough of being alone with mine….so now I’m sharing them you. Airing out the dirty laundry. It was time.
May 04, 2012 @ 11:08:11
Stopping by from 5 minute Friday. First of all I am sending you a big hug, what a courageous thing you have done by sharing this. And know that you are not alone, many women struggle with this, we just…don’t like to talk about things that are hard, or that might make us feel “weak.”
I love your idea for a series of guest posts. I recently took a momoir class and we all joked about how it was as good as therpy. The reality is that much healing comes when we share those deep places of our hearts that we keep hidden. What a journey this will be for you and how you will bless other women that find themselves in your same position but have not been able to share those same feelings yet.
If you get a chance, stop by my blog and say hi.
May 04, 2012 @ 13:15:56
Hey Ellen! Thanks for stopping by! I’m thankful that I do know that I am not alone AND that women don’t talk about these things! Hence, why I’m hoping to start a new trend
I really love embracing the tough things and finding the guts to bring them to light and T-A-L-K about them. In a time when social media drives so much of who we are, I feel that we know one another even less than we ever have before (if you can follow that…let’s just say it made sense in my head!). Looking forward to becoming acquainted with your little piece of the blogosphere! ~love & light~
May 04, 2012 @ 11:27:08
Good job! It’s tough being real, but it does pay off.
May 04, 2012 @ 13:10:35
Thanks Kari! Knowing I have people like you I can count on to be in my corner no matter what is pretty amazing too
May 04, 2012 @ 13:24:52
This is why you should have never left!
I had PPD’s ugly stepsister, Post Partum Psychosis. I will regale you with stories of being “so sure” that things were happening that were never happening and never would. I was a real delight. And, I do talk about it, and I won’t stop until every mother I know, knows what a “screw loose” person I was for quite some time. Thanks for talking about it here. Thanks for trying to reach more people. You are doing an awesome job x10. Talk to you/see you soon.
May 04, 2012 @ 15:10:05
I suffered from PPD as well. I applaud your honesty and pray that you can find your way back out of the darkness that PPD can cause. Know always that you are held in the arms of the Father.